Sooo, it's been almost a month since I last posted. I didn't realize that time had gotten away one me like that. It seems almost hard to believe that I have barely even stopped by to look at the sight, but so may things going on. So many things getting in the way and I'm not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing. I'm still trying to sort it all out in my head. My new saying, One Breath at a time. I'm sure I'll do just fine.

I'll be back soon to make a more realistic update <3

Wow so it's been quite a while since I last wrote a post and thats totally been my bad. Sorry everyone who cares Hopefully this come back post won't be too disappointing but I'm kind of playing this by ear and unsure of what I want to talk about lol.

Oh! I did want to thank everyone who commented on the last post. I probably came off a lot more angry then I was. Ocean did get a time out, she had to sit on the couch while I cleaned up the living room and she knew she was in trouble because when my parents called she told her Grandfather "i in twouble" that was so cute I could have died right there. The stain is still in the carpet but we're replacing the carpet anyway so I'm not too overly concerned about that and she didn't hurt herself in her adventure so we're all okay lol.

I haven't been paying enough attention to the site lately. Thats mainly because I've found myself engrossed in a RPG forum. I finally found one that had the level of play I was looking for and could actually commit to and since I've made two characters already and I'm on my third...you could say I'm having too much fun to turn away!

Anyway since I'm a huge geek and work in tech support I'm back to watching the live mac world expo thats on today

I am angry. I am more angry then I have been in a long time. So angry I gave myself a headache and what makes it worse is I'm angry at Ocean. This little child, my baby, who I try so hard to not get mad at, who I realize is just a baby....had worn on my last nerve.

So instead of talking about how I finally have my duel moniter set up at work, or how I got the most amazing keyboard, or even how I finally got my hair dye in and was able to change the red to more of a hot pink, I'm going to talk to you about what I woke up to this morning.

I rolled over in my bed to a noise coming from my living room. I wasn't sure what the sound was so I opened my eyes and looked out my bedroom door to see Ocean smiling at me. Already I had a sinking feeling in my stomach. Immediately I got out of bed and rushed out of my room. Thats when it started.

Ocean had gotten ahold of my hair dye and spilled it all over my living room floor. My beige carpet now has a large hot pink stain in it. That alone made me upset because I wanted to save the rest of the hair dye for a later date and the fact that my carpet was ruined. Then I looked over to see what she was currently doing and found her on the floor with my purse. My wallet had been emptied out and my belongings were scattered everywhere. Most of the money was missing or scattered around the place, my makeup was all over her and all over everything else in the living room and most of it was ruined completely. To add onto this, my cat had thrown up on the carpet as well. Ocean had also dumped out my contact case losing my contacts and wasting most of my solution.

Overall. A perfect way to start the day right? And at this point I'm just so worn out I have nothing more to say

Well it's been a few days since I blogged so I figured I should get something up to make it seem like I was still somewhat alive. Not quite sure what I'm going to write about but I'll just have to make something up as I go along it seems lol.

Ocean has definitely hit her terrible twos. I hate using that term, and she isn't officially two yet, but times are getting harder as each day goes on. She's becoming extremely independant (in the bad way) and is flat out refusing assistance when it comes to something she honestly can't do by herself but thinks she can. She's also taken into escaping from the house, running down to the barn when at my parents and trying to run away from me and into the street when we are home. The child is going to be the cause of my early death. I hate how every day is turning into a war when all I want to do is just cuddle with my baby and have her want me doing everything for her again, but thats slipping away.

I guess I'm mainly concerned about her losing that attachement with me we've had up to now. She hasn't had her Father and so she's always wanted me around, she preferred me above everyone else and when she was at either Grandparents all she could talk about was me. It was the first time in my life that I came first and mattered that much to anyone, even if it was just a little child, it meant so much to me. I'm sure all mother's feel like that once in a while though lol!

Also...I've been browsing the net more lately, at least in terms of websites that are supposedly very popular. These are the sites that are run by teenage girls, who somehow have thousands of hits to their site, just because they apparently have "talent". It's true that these girls are good at designing sites, but they aren't skilled graphics or coding geniuses (mind you way better then I am) but they seem to tout themselves as Goddess's of the internet to those who appear to hang off their every word. They are like the mean popular girls from highschool. What was really sad to me is that these girls all got their start from making MySpace graphics and most of the sites I found thats all they still offered. I never even had a MySpace profile so this just...it saddens me.

Where have all the true web designers gone, the ones who cringed at the site of glittery blinkies or flashing signs?

So I finally managed to create a new layout and get it up. Some how I managed to finish the graphics today and recode all the pages. Not quite sure how that happened but I'm proud of myself. It seems that once I got going on it and was satisfied how it looked I couldn't stop until I had everything up and running. Also helped that Ocean was at her grandparents for the day and I wasn't at work so I had a whole bunch of time to myself

I really like this layout, although it took me five tries to find a picture that I liked and that looked good. I finally settled on this one of Emilie Autumn. I've always wanted to use her in a layout because I think she is so amazingly beautiful, not to mention talented, and so I'm excited I find a picture of her that worked well with the theme I was using! Please let me know what you think about this, I'm thinking it looks alot better then my last one but that could be just my own delusion thoughts

Also I found a add on for my cute news to stop that crazy spamming that keeps going on in my comments. Hopefully I'll also have that up by the end of the night, depends on how much more motivation I have left in me

So the world has come to a end in my small little Province. It seems that a world where we had to purchase can pop from other provinces and sneak it back home, illegally, has come to an end. As of a few days ago, Prince Edward Island got canned pop. For those of you who have no idea about my lovely island home, we have had bottled pop for years. Glass bottles. Canned pop was actually illegal.

The reason for this was, secretly, because a small little company that our government had a big interest in only made glass bottled pop. So our government banned canned pop for "environmental" reasons. This was about 25 years ago. In the last couple of years, this little island bottling company was bought by Pepsi. Since then the race has been on to bring canned pop to the island and now it is reality.

Most people here are ecstatic about the cans coming to the island. Me not so much. With the cans arriving the bottles are leaving and all I've known are the glass bottles and thats one of the things that made us special. We were one of the few places to get glass bottles. Oh well, I guess change is a good thing.

So it appears that my cute news is being spammed. Well that just sucks. I'm slowly weeding it down though, banning the IPs attached to the comments and deleting them. Thats my course of action until I find a better way to stop them. So far the only real thing I can do is require a email address for people to comment but then they wouldn't be able to put their website address which would suck because I want to visit my commenter's sites.

Oh well. I'll figure something out.

As well, this is something I've been meaning to do for a while but haven't got around to because procrastination kicks my ass. But Kaytie asked me to post some links around my site for JShock which is a record label that signs JRock artists and brings them to America. Since I'm a huge JRock fan and do support bringing Asian artists to North America I agreed but never got around to it. So I'm going to do it now. If you interested please check out the following link.



I will also be adding it to various other parts of my site if you loose the link in the future and still want to check it out.

I wanted to thank everyone so much for their comments on my last entry. I know it was kind of intensely personal and probably a heavy topic for some but I appreciate you taking the time to read it and comment on it with your own thoughts an opinions. I sometimes need people who don't know me personally to take a look at my situation and tell me what they think because I feel as though my friends are just automatically on my side and I don't even know if thats fair. So I definitely appreciate every comment

So while at work today I learned something new. A Mac can restart faster then a PC. Booyah, take that Microsoft, we own you in the restart department. You may no go hang your head in shame. Thats the best part in working for technical support, you can have races with your customer's when they have no idea whats going on. Like my buddy Stephen pulling the restart test with his customer. Stephen's good ol' eMac was already loading back up when his customer's computer was just making the shutting down sound.

Always good for a laugh Windows.

Also since I'm enjoying my Mr. "Fake" iPod so much, I've been back on ebay looking for some more :P This time I'm going for a second gen looking one. Thats what I got for my friend when I got the one I currently have and it looks alot sleeker and has the aluminum covering of the real ipods which my Mr. "Fake" iPod does not have. He's all plastic (well where he isn't metal that is). If anyone wants to see what I'm talking about here is one example of a fake ipod, this seller has a store and it's constantly in stock with these fakes if anyone is interested in a cheap mp3 player that will fool your friends into thinking it's an iPod

P.S. I'm also giving a shout out to SavePolariod.com. Take a few minutes and check it out

So everyone asked for it and was waiting to see it and now I finally have it. Pictures of Mr. "Fake" iPod. I finally found batteries to stick into my battery draining camera and take a few pics. They aren't the greatest quality because my camera sucks but you'll get a good idea of his awesomeness lol.

Just click on the pictures for a bigger image.





It's so little and cute. I know it's kind of crazy but I actually like it more then my real ipod lol. It's way lighter to carry around then my real ipod and it's got more features to some extent. It doesn't have the same software of course and doesn't have the scroll wheel but it works just fine for me. Also I added a pic of me and my friend Michelle that we took last weekend lol. I'm the one with the red hair

I'm still hard at work on a new layout, except by that of course I mean I haven't started yet because I haven't found anything to motivate me since I'm just not inspired or anything like that. Hopefully that'll change soon, probably not though lol

Batteries are hard to come by in my house it seems. At least ones that my camera likes, so alas I have no pictures today of Mr. "Fake" iPod, but hopefully soon I'll be able to post pictures of his beautiful pinkness and his totally ipod fakeness lol!

Life has been pretty stressful lately, my ex seems to think it's fun to spread lies about me at work. Thankfully most people are able to see past his childishness and ignore him, but when I'm able to hear about him talking about me behind my back it's hard not to be hurt by it. It's good I work with some amazing people and friends who are able to help me through it. I've learned my lesson about dating immature guys I guess hahaha...little too late perhaps, oh well.

I wanted to thank everyone very much for their comments! Hopefully I'll get time sometime today to reply back to everyone, I'm at work but it's pretty slow in terms of work so I'm looking forward to a hour lunch and time to visit everyone's site

Edit:// I think Kaytie has finished moving in!! Check out her site Yorokobi-no-Jinsei.KaosuJunkie.Net. Beautiful layout !!!

So I'm not sure if I mentioned this but a few weeks ago I ordered a "fake" iPod off of ebay. I did this on purpose (those who know my job would understand, regrettably because of privacy policies with my work I can't say what that is) and it's so cute. It's pink and looks like the 3rd gen iPod nano. Personally I'm in love with it and when I get batteries for my camera I will post what it looks like.

I really can't say I went wrong, I paid about five bucks for the thing and so even if it lasts only a few days I got my moneys worth out of it hahaha. Everybody at work is getting a kick out of it too because it looks so much like a iPod but doesn't function like one at all.

Anyway on the website front I have a new hostee :) her name is Kaytie and she's not finished moving in yet but from what I've seen her website will be a wonderful addition to the KaosuJunkie website <3

Well my vacation is over. I didn't post while on vacation because I was to busy enjoying my time with Ocean. I've been back to work for the last few days but I was busy easing my way in so I didn't do any updates during that time either.

I have been busy though, working on the next layout and how I want my style to grow. Kind of trying to get artistic while at the same time not really feeling the motivation to sit down and hack it out. But we'll see what I am feeling like over the next few days.

WOW! Like magic, I'm on my third day of vacation and I have already updated the Tutorials page. I added a bunch of fun little javascript codes that I remember using back when I started web designing. I thought that somebody might get some use out of them

I'm kind of running out of ideas for tutorials. I suck so bad at making graphics that I can't make any graphic tutorials, but if any one has any ideas for some tutorials they would like to see, hit me up and I'll see what I can do.

I also want to try and get more graphics and extras up, but we'll have to see how motivated that I am. Ocean is at her paternal grandparents for the weekend so I'm going out with some friends for once, but I'll try and dedicate some time to the site like I planned on.

Edit:// I thought I'd share these new pictures of Ocean

So I had a slight break down at work yesterday. Nothing big but obviously a sign that I should have taken my vacation sooner. At least this is my last day of work and then I have 13 free days to just spend doing whatever I want with Ocean. It's going to be beautiful. Hopefully when I get back my mind won't be so strained and there will be no more break downs, no more tears and I'll be able to put myself 100% into my work again without feeling like I'm forcing myself to be here .

Anyway since I left work yesterday and went to my parents, I did have internet for a while last night and was able to work on some more of the tutorials I've been wanting to get up. I didn't upload them to the site last night as I wanted some more time to make sure they were just right and then I could do one big update. Whooohoo exciting. Well for me at least :P. The revamped tutorials page will come with that as well, so it'll be more easier to navigate.

Anyway need to start work soon and I see a cigarette that is calling my name.

So I got the new router last night from my buddy Jowe and my main girl Hollie came over to help me set it up. For honest, you would never be able to tell the two of us are senior technicians. We didn't have the first clue what we were doing with the damn thing and no matter what we tried we couldn't get it set up.

Obviously wireless isn't our strong suit. It's a good thing we aren't Product Specialists for internet/wireless connections. We'd fail.

Anyway I took my laptop into work today and my super awesomely smart office neighbour (who goes by codename Tucker for anyone who has watched redvsblue) has said he's going to take a look as to why my laptop won't hard wire to modem and perhaps see why it could pick up the old router but not the newer, more high tech one. Hopefully I'll have some sort of internet when I get home from work :P

Oh yes and my 13 day vacation from work starts on Thursday! So I have lots of updates and changes planned for that time period because I'm hoping to get alot accomplished. Of course Ocean may have other plans for me but we'll see what happens!

Another day and I find another reason to write.

I'm currently without internet at home. My ex took his router back so my wireless is gone and when I try to hard wire my laptop to my modem that doesn't work either because my ex formatted my hard drive and didn't put my ISP information back onto my computer. So no internet at home until my friend gives me his, which he has said I can have because he isn't using it.

So I only have internet access at work and I can't update the website from here, which sucks . Hopefully I'll get the router soon though and then I'll be all hooked up at home again. Then I can start getting those updates up that I've been working on.

For now, though, I have a giant coffee awaiting me and I should not leave it waiting.

Edit:// So I can't stop listening to Dir en Grey - Rotting Root. I've listened to it before when the album first came out but something about it is only now drawing me into it. Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful.

So as I sit here at work listening to Apologize by OneRepublic, I realized that I hadn't posted anything since I changed around the site and put up the new layout. Thats horrible of me. So I've started working on some new Javascript tutorials to put up. I spend most of last night searching for reworked codes and editing them slightly to make them more user friendly so hopefully you'll enjoy them when I get them up . I'm also going to change the format of the Tutorials page slightly so that it's easier to navigate.

I also added a new affiliate! Please welcome Yuki and be sure to check out her site! Her layout is beautiful and smooth, you have to go if only just to drool over the layout!

On the life front not to much is going on. Recently broke up with my boyfriend of two months, but it's not something I really want to talk about with anyone (even though I ended it). It's still just fresh and I'm still getting my mind around my reasoning and still working on being friends with him so we'll see how that goes. Hopefully well so wish me luck on that!

So this is sort of a new start for KaosuJunkie.net. First I went ahead and installed cutenews. I have to say that so far it is one of my favorite blogging programs, it's fairly easy to play with and customize. I've had it installed for a few weeks now but I was playing around with it to get things how I wanted and although I'm still getting the hang of it, I am getting much more comfortable with it then I was previously.

Also there is a new layout up. Not long after I opened up KaosuJunkie.net and put up the previous layout, I began to work on another featuring Reita the ever beautiful and lovely Reita from the GazettE and since he is just oh so lovely, I couldn't wait any longer and so I coded this sucker and made cutenews fit into the flow and here it all is.

I want to also point out that I added alot of content as well. I've been working on it for several weeks, I wasn't sure if I was going to put any of it up but as a last minute decision I went ahead and put it all up and hopefully all the links are working properly.

Let me know what you think. Yes, No, or No Comment lol